That's part of why I don't think I could go back. [Without even really thinking about it, his hands go to clasp together, nails digging into the back of his knuckles.] If I return with no memories, then I waste away in a cave, no purpose, no contact with anyone else, nothing. If I returned with them... It might not make a difference.

[He tries to smile, but it's sad instead of reassuring.]

We still couldn't be together. After your relationship with Mindfang, I would be just another highblood to your troops- and that's if they didn't find out I was the Executor of the previous rebellion's leader.

Here, I can do a bit of good. I can build things, I can teach the boys how to be better than I ever was... I wouldn't be in your way.