Yes, and Darkleer's learning to do that same, he's just, he's not you, Spinneret. -No! No... he hasn't taken your place. I-[A frantic sigh, sliding a hand through his hair.]

I loved you too, and you don't- [Grits his teeth.] There isn't a second chance. You died, and- and I prepared myself to live with that fact. I knew killing you would mean I couldn't have you ever again, there's no second chances after that, Spinneret, I, I don't think I could handle that, and it took sweeps to deal with it. I was ready to never be w-with anyone else again, and then I came back here, here where I, where he and I had something, and I still felt that way. You being alive is already something I never thought I could handle again, and I, I really don't know what to say about it anymore.

I loved you so much- and I, I still love you, but that's- that's heavier than I can stand.